My first week without hair

Well, the first week without hair is almost over. It has been a week full of anxiety and apprehension. But, I think it is getting better. Of course the Xanax the doctor gave me will help!!

Siggy is here making me hats. She knitted the cutest and softest hat for me. It's awesome!! She also made me some sleep hats too that are nice and soft.

More later.

#2

I finished treatment #2. I didn't sleep very well last night, but it's the steroids that I have to take. So far, not too much nausea. They say that comes on the 3rd or 4th day when the steroids leave your body. I am hoping it won't be too bad.

Sharon and Siggy went off shopping. I am going for a nap. They are working on the shirt design for the Race for the Cure on Nov 1. It will be awesome!!

I'll write more later.

It's a new day

I was feeling a bit depressed yesterday at the fact I now have to wear a scarf, bandana, something to cover the bald spots. I liked my hair that short, it was kind of fun and sassy!!

Now, it's a new day. The cancer is real. It is visible to everyone. I think one reason I have been able to keep a positive attitude is I could "hide" it. I will have to work harder at having a strong, positive attitude. And I will!

I am glad Siggy is coming for a visit. She arrives tomorrow with a new, pink hat for me to wear around the house, to sleep, where ever I feel like wearing it. It will be good for Sharon too, she deserves to laugh and have some fun. She is working very hard at being a wonderful caretaker, making sure I eat right, drink enough, stay healthy.

More about Hair

Today was the day my hair started falling out by the handful. As you can see, I have a new look. It wasn't as difficult as I had thought it would be, but I think it was for Sharon. Anyone who wants to copy me it is a '4' on the clipper setting!! LOL.

Sharon thinks we should shave Hoosier just for kicks, but I won't allow it!! He is doing better since we changed his food. He isn't as cranky.

Hugs,
Rhonda and Sharon

Hair

What is it about hair that defines us, or at least we think it defines us? I didn't think I would be bothered as much about losing my hair as I am. I am more vane than I wanted to admit. Is it because now it's in your face I have breast cancer? Or is it because I am worried what other people will think about how I look? Or is it because I am afraid? All of those seem to be a logical choice for how I feel. In reality, it is just hair. It doesn't really define me as a person. I will be the same person inside without hair as I am with it. And it is only temporary. By mid-November it will be growing back. The positive side, and I think there is always a positive side, I am losing it when it is hotter than hell in Austin. I can get out of bed, wash my little head and put on a scarf or bandana for the day and away I go.

So, by the end of the week I will have to go and get it shaved. This morning was the first day it started coming out. I knew this week would be it as my scalp has been more sensitive the past few days. I guess this starts the next part of the journey.

My next treatment is next Wednesday, after that, only 4 more to go!

Race for the Cure - Austin

Join us in our Race for the Cure in Austin on Sunday, November 1, 2009. We are putting a team of walkers together. We would love it if you can join us in the walk. The t-shirt design is underway and we are taking team name suggestions.

I will have one last treatment when we complete the walk. Thank you for your support!!

Rhonda and Sharon

Fighting Like a Girl

This week hasn't been as bad as I may have expected. The one thing that surprised me the most was the immediate effects the chemotherapy drugs have had on me. I have lost most of my taste buds so if the food doesn't taste 'bad' then it must be good. Sharon is wonderful, of course I have said that on many occasions. She is making sure I eat healthier with more fiber, fruits and vegetables. I know this is exceptionally difficult for her as well.

This week should be better with my energy level returning to more normal levels. This week is also the week when I am most susceptible to infections and fever. I just have to try and be careful and stay strong.

We went today and washed the car, went to the grocery store and then she gave me a wonderful pedicure. I am wearing 'Such a Kareoke Queen' pink. Tomorrow, it's back to work.