This week has been especially difficult because I am working in Mississippi, and Sharon is at home in Austin. I think Sharon and I are both nervous for chemo to start. I have very conflicting emotions that I am trying to work through and it's difficult. The doctor's and the pathology say my lymph nodes are negative which is awesome, so no more cancer. I have to begin an agressive course of chemotherapy on Monday because the cancer was an agressive growing tumor. We are treating what COULD be. I don't feel sick, but the numerous tests I have had to go through to get to this point make me question it all. In my heart, I know I am fine, I will be fine, will always be cancer free, but there is that little inkling that sometimes makes me afraid; what if......
So, Monday is the day. I have to get there at 11:30 am. The first treatment will take about 4 hours. I will be brave and try not to cry, very much. In all honesty, I think its the chemo I am more afraid of than the surgery.
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